I used to question it being possible for happiness and sadness to exist at the same time. To "co-exist" as it were. It has successfully proven itself possible this evening.

In explanation, things are looking up for everyone I know (just about). People are having gf's/bf's or are very evidently going to succeed in the near future. I, on the other hand, am not so successful.

I feel as though I'm just lonely. I want to have someone to go to (besides friends) but ... it doesn't exist. I dunno. I just feel lost and conflicted and ... lost. I want something but I cannot find it no matter where I turn. I like someone but ... yeah, I ...... gah! I make no sense.

What do I want to do? Do I just want to chill? I guess I really have no choice. I agree that I have nothing to worry about yet but it's still a concern, ya know? Can't just ignore it. :: sighs :: what to do what to do.

So today was fun. I went over to Tiff's and we ate lunch and watched Anger Management. It's such a good movie btw. Then we went to see The Aviator with Gretchen and Brad. Also it was a good film ... somewhat strange but good. Then we went to eat with our group (minus Brad) and then bowling. Very fun day and I wasn't stuck at home for hardly any of it. This pleases me.

Megan liked my gift! Phew! I wasn't ACTUALLY concerned but it's good to know I didn't buy something and have her go, "well umm ... gee, you REALLY shouldn't have." So ... phew.

I've got nothing left. Bye.