So as I expected, Bush won. I'm happy while others are not. I guess that's always the way it works though. One person's happiness is another's misery. Ah well, I believe America as a whole made the right choice for these next 4 years and the set up for years to come.
I'm having some difficulty focusing and I'm afraid it's going to hinder my work. I was supposed to be home at 9 today to study for a test and to do some schoolwork. I got home at 11:30 and proceeded to do none of it. This makes it more difficult so I'm not entirely sure what to do. I mean ... ok, I typed that wrong. I know what to do but my problem is doing it. I see the schoolwork. I know it has to be done. Instead, I go hang with people and don't come home until too late at night to do it. "There's always tomorrow" I always seem to say. Alas, tomorrow (today) is not a good day to do work because I have work again after 3 days off. Argh!
So I let some people down for Saturday. I feel bad about it but I should have known better. Renee is not a useful person so why would I expect to be able to work when I want to? Psh. This only furthers my point that I should make more than her, not less (by a lot).
I'm also frustrated because I felt down later on this evening. I just felt out of place like I had felt a few weeks/months ago. I don't like the feeling and I hope it was just random. :-\ I can't wait for this semester to be over so I can just relax and not worry about anything except what to buy people for Christmas/birthdays.
I'm really nervous about being on the "home stretch" as I'll call it. I have 1 year of school left after this semester. One is professional semester and one is student teaching. Student teaching I am clueless about and extremely nervous about as well. Just no idea what's involved, what's expected, and whatnot. I assume they will clue me in but if not ... I'll be in trouble. Pro Sem I also don't really know much about. Especially that 2 weeks of field experience I'll have. What school will I go to? Will I have a choice? I hope I do because I do NOT want to go to a school closer to Reading. That would not be good times.
Frustration with myself builds. I had better sleep. Night.
2 comments:
You know Chuck, if I might fire your imagination for a moment, there is a very, very large state I'm somewhat familiar with that has a chronic shortage of teachers, especially dedicated teachers wanting to make serious differences in kids' lives.
Might I humbly suggest that you give some thought to toughing out that last year in Pennsylvania- wherever they send you to intern, and then come to Alaska. At least consider trying it out for a year or two.
There are numerous villages here that are only accessible by plane or boat. And I know from my own experiences here that there are a lot of kids who go wanting for good role models.
A young man who wants to teach, values history and has as a major concern the gifts he wants to give others might well be a Godsend here.
Life here can be - unique. And I hasten to add fascinating, challenging and often a lot of fun.
As further ramble, whilst you try to get motivated to do your school work I'll offer this pearl of mine own devising (ask a few middle age to older guys what they think, give 'em a few minutes and ask 'em to comment,) "most men of forty would gladly strangle the man they were when they were twenty."
Anyway, you have one of the few coherent blogs I've come across, I hope I don't make a pest of myself by commenting from time to time, feel free to tell me if I do.
although i am not as sad/depressed/angry as most democrats are right now, my spirits are low. and i am just commenting because you mentioned christmas and that is one of the only things i'm currently looking forward to.
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