I hate this. I really do. I look around me and what do I see? Relationships. What do I have? None. What's worse? I don't even know if I have time to dedicate for a relationship. I want one ... but I don't really know where to start. I mean I have Gretchen's friend who seems nice although I don't know her well. I could call her, talk to her on the phone ... but we're both busy frequently right now and I'm sure she's going off to college in August. Negative? Yeah, I am sometimes. Maybe frequently. Who knows.

Another thing I don't like ... people go on these "double dates" and don't invite me because I'm single. I know I probably wouldn't enjoy myself anyway but I dunno, I feel left out sometimes.

I talk to people that have a different relationship going every week or so and while I'm not like that ... the fact that they can find someone every week says something. Maybe I just have to go fishing or something. By "fishing" I mean "leaving myself open to a catch." I dunno. I'm so confused and disoriented at times.

Work today pissed me off. It wasn't the staff, they were fine. It was Renee's entrails from the night before that set me off. I come in ... stuff is dirty. OK, fine, I expect that from her. I go in the back to get stock for them (them being employees) and what do I see? I see several boxes of sour skittles in the back. Now, what does this mean? Well we just changed the size of our candies so we have old candy in bags and new candy in boxes. Renee took boxed candy out and put it out front before using the boxes of Sour Skittles bags that we still had. I was quite mad. I took the Sour Skittles boxes out front and moved them back and brought out the bags. End of solution except I don't know how many of the others they sold. I'm just not happy with her. Jeff isn't either. I think she's getting written up for not rotating stock. WE WRITE THE DATES ON THE BOXES! Hmm, this one was shipped to use 2 months ago, let's use the new ones that just came in last week. That makes sense. Nope!

The mind is flooded with thoughts. I don't even know. I'm going to go lie down and hope tomorrow comes with happier times.