My mind is filled with such jumbled thoughts. So hard to decipher all the things passing through the brain these days. I was just discussing today how I am just taking a break from "women" but yet ... I don't really want to. I want to take a break. I want to just relax and enjoy college life and friends but yet I can't help but like someone. It's just a reflex almost.

What makes matters worse is my mind is so lost I don't even want to tell someone I like them because what if my mind is just thinking that way? I mean ... gah. I can't handle this pressure. It is for this reason that I just want to relax and play innocent bystander for a while. It won't happen ... I know me ... but I can hope. I can't explain any better than I am already doing. It's just ... gah. That's all there is to it.

In other news, nice job by Megan for looking good today. Pardon me ... looking really good today. Naturally, she always looks good ;-)

In further news, I failed to mention to Gretchen that she also looked good today. My apologies but you looked good, Gretch! Again: pardon me ... looked really good.

Maybe if all these ladies wouldn't look so damn good all the time I wouldn't have a problem?! :-)

:: pulls hair out ::

Thanks to Matt for letting me borrow Act 1 of War Games. I'll attempt to read through it quickly and get it returned to you.

:: pulls more hair out ::

It's a good thing I have a thick head of hair ... this confusion may test the limits of my folical fortitude. I think I spelled folicle or folical wrong ... in either case I think it's wrong but I don't feel like looking it up.

Gretchen's party was fun today. Megan and I are the best team ever even when we lose. It's just a natural awesomeness that we possess. I laughed quite heartily today ... I like laughing. It's a lot easier than sitting and thinking ... I agree with the Gretchen theory (laugh frequently to prevent overthinking ... at least that's what I got out of it but oh well).

The roads got "hella icy" suddenly. It was death for me to try to go home. I should have done the intelligent thing and stayed at Gretchen's but I made it. I actually didn't think my father would want me staying out somewhere but evidently I was wrong when I got home and he said I could have stayed. I've only know them 21 1/2 years so I guess I just don't know their decision making yet. :-
Anyway, I'm going to go be confused elsewhere. Cya later.

P.S. Thanks to Fred for giving me that interesting satellite thing for Christmas. I'm sure I'll find a use for it.