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To be honest, I don't know what that says. I meant to type, "Went to the homecoming dance today." but that doesn't fit. I give up. Anyway, so I went to the homecoming dance with Gretchen. It was fun but it has become clear that I'm old ... well, old for that crowd. I got checked out today though ... though I think they were 15 so that's a no no.

I got to dance with 2 people. That was one more than my goal. I feel bad though because the second girl knew my name and I can't think of hers. It's Gretchen's friend so it wasn't just some random girl. I think I scared her when I told her I was a senior in college though. My bad.

I'm fighting it. Fighting ... fighting ... tearing ... ok, maybe a bad idea. Gah! I don't want to deal with this anymore! I just wanna be done. Just want nothing more. Want to do nothing. Not true -- I lied just then. I want to ... I don't know.

Work today was fine. I'm not so sure about the new kid (the Soul Caliber II champ). He's a bit of a slacker and it was only his second day. He: A.) forgot his shirt, B.) moped around nothing doing a whole lot, C.) went to talk to friends rather than working, D.) other things. Now here's why this is all a problem ... it was his SECOND day. You think you should be making an impression on your managers? Huh? Geez. I don't think I can become attached to any new workers. It just won't happen. I've decided. I need to get stern, throw stuff, yell, get in their face ... they need to start listening. This "next generation" as I shall call them will see the wrath of Chuckie. Muhaha.

Have you ever felt like you wanted to cry? I have. Recently actually. I've just been sitting around and just felt that I needed to cry even though there really is nothing legitimate to cry about. I haven't cried in 3 years and before that I hadn't cried for more years than I could count. I don't know if it's possible anymore for me. I wish it was because there are just circumstances that it helps ... but not me, mine just bottle up and I just lash out at those that don't really deserve it. Gah again!

Oh, so the first real slow song comes on and Gretchen and I start dancing. It was "Wonderful Tonight" and I was like, "crap" because if I'm not mistaken, that was Erika and my first slow dance. Geez. Brought back some memories there. So strange that they would pick that particular song ... must be a popular one.

I don't recall if I mentioned this but my teacher pushed back the due date for the paper to mid-November. This causes a problem because I know I'm a procrastinator and any motivation I had to finish the paper is now gone. This sucks because I have 2 others papers to write so I can't dwell on this first one for too long. I haaaatte stress. It makes me so sad.

I'm all done. I can't write about anything else that I'm thinking. Cya.