Hello.

I'm kind of down right now. It's no one's fault really ... just kind of disappointed with the way the school year is going thus far. I'm still unmotivated to do work, yet I have plenty of time in a day to do it. I'm having issues remembering stuff and I'm concerned I'm going to miss something important and then I'll be sorry.

I asked Laura out on the 19th and I haven't gotten to see her since. School and work really sucks for both of us and I'm disappointed that I have been unable to see her. I guess this is where I learn patience though, right? I'm pretty patient, but I don't have to be happy about it. :-) :-( :-\ Not sure what face to put here so I'll use an assortment.

I worked this evening with John and we were laughing about Renee as we usually do. Of course, then laughter switched to my retardedness as I realized I did not close the inventory period last Thursday. NOT GOOD btw. Not good ... I fixed it so I guess it ultimately doesn't matter but I've been doing inventory for how long now? I should be able to remember to close the inventory period. Bah.

I don't want to do my papers. This goes under the school disappointment category but I'll separate it for emphasis. I have a 5-page paper due Friday on an essay in my one book. I don't feel like reading it and I have work in my other classes. If I did all the reading that was assigned for my classes, I don't think I'd ever see any of my friends ... or even my family ... and forget about me going to work, that wouldn't happen. The pressures of a history major I guess. TONS of reading, and not enough hours in the day. Eh, I guess the pressure of college students is more like it ... mmm yeah.

I find myself wanting to fight sleep but I really should be sleeping so I can wake up and get to the gym before class. Brad wants to hang out after class but as I said, I have so much schoolwork to do, I don't know if I'll be able to do since I should be home at 10 and such. :: sighs :: what can be done though? I have a test on Friday, I have a paper due Friday, I have research I need to get started on and I have some bible stories to summarize and turn in on Wednesday. Thank GOODNESS I did the powerpoint presentation when I did or I don't know if I'd survive the week.

I now think I see the pressure Laura is talking about. She wants to do stuff but there just isn't time for it. Such is college life I guess. This happened to me last semester for a few weeks, I pray it's only a spurt for this semester too. After this, I'm going to pro sem if my ADVISOR WOULD EVER GET BACK TO ME and that shouldn't be too difficult and then I go to student teach. I'm pretty nervous about the student teaching idea. I just don't know if I will be able to do it. I know I'm not ready in my current state. Hopefully that'll all change. If I get pointers from the teacher I'm watching, that'll help too. I'll take any and all pointers I can get to be honest. Even from students or anyone ... yeah, just about anyone.

Well, I feel better now that I've blogged. Thanks for reading and thanks for ... something else that I forget what I was going to say but have continued to type anyway. Have a good night.